While I was home this summer, I heard two questions over and over again. I’ve already answered the first one here, about how I ended up going out for maternity leave so early. Paul got asked that one too, but not surprisingly he didn’t get asked this one: “Are you going back to work?” I get why people ask this, but I was pretty surprised by how many people seemed to assume that I would say no.
When PJ was in the NICU we had talked about what would happen if he started to show signs of having special needs from being born so early. If that had been the case, I probably would not have returned to the office and taken up the different kind of work involved with taking care of those needs. Thankfully, we never came to that bridge because he seems to be on track for all his major development milestones.
Without that hurdle, it was pretty easy to say that I was going to go back. First off, I really enjoy my job and still have professional goals I’d like to achieve. Second, even though we survived the summer without my regular income, we know we can give PJ many more fun adventures with it.
Of course I had a few days this summer where I really thought about what it would be like to stay home with my little man every day, and now that I’m back to work I look forward to my days off with him from the minute I leave home on Monday to the minute I get home on Thursday. But the thing is, I’m way better at marketing than at housekeeping (quit nodding, Paul). And if that became my job, I know I’d be terrible at it, and that wouldn’t be good for anyone.
So I’ve started the last two weeks on a baby-snuggle high, and the last two weekends feeling good about what I’ve gotten done at the office. I know not every week will be good like this, but it’s a good start.